Life redux.

  Universal Tarot Reading How you feel Your current emotional state and inner landscape. Two of Swords You feel suspended between two equally compelling options, as if each one carries a promise of peace but asks you to commit in a different direction. There is a strong desire for harmony and healing, so you hold opposing forces in careful balance rather than letting the situation tip into discord. The tension is real, yet it is contained, and you sense that a fair settlement is possible if you keep your composure. The blindfold speaks to how unclear the path feels right now; you don’t have all the information you want, or you don’t trust what you see, so you rely on keeping everything even. With two swords held steady, you maintain a stalemate that prevents immediate harm, but it also delays action. Part of you wants decisive movement, and another part resists choosing because both alternatives seem workable, or because each choice costs something you value. You are already acting...

  16.02.26 MOnday Almeria/ Mother  birthday/ I have not missed you for a minute. You gave nothing, offered less, but the suck was there, underneath. The games of extraction/ repositioning your nails, to drive your fucked up in harder. like a mallet, to a flower. You gave nothing on which I could rest upon, to lift me over the dark or make this journey shorter. I have always been alone So Why the fuck did you call? MB 17.02.26 Heart bled in the bad lands. Wasted men. Beasts on horses, the lift of madness. These are the lands she defends burying the sound. Bright bullets locked and loaded. The secret chambers. like lamentations, the blood of old contracts, stricken in their nature. Things that depopulate, that bottom out and dig beneath. These outlands that must be guarded at all costs. She holds only the metal now, knowing only what has come. MB 18.02.26 The bleeding is fast now, she cannot staunch the wound. The fingers slip in and out of her suffering, blo...

  Eight of Wands Eight wands cut cleanly across an open sky, and that image captures what you step into now: momentum. The pace of your life quickens sharply, and what you set in motion moves with little resistance. Messages, answers, and opportunities arrive quickly, and events line up so that progress feels almost effortless once you commit. Projects already underway reach completion sooner than you expect, and new plans take off fast when you focus your energy and make timely decisions. This is the moment to use your intellect to harness your vitality: drop wasteful ideas, simplify, and direct your effort where it counts. When you stay clear on priorities, nothing is wasted and success comes through speed paired with control. Travel links strongly to what unfolds, especially through work or practical obligations, and movement itself becomes part of how things resolve. Relationships also run well-starred, with quick developments and the need for clear choices if feelings or commi...

  Let’s Talk About the Guilt That Comes After You Leave There is a guilt no one prepares you for. Indulge me. The guilt of leaving someone who was not good for you, and still feeling like you betrayed them. You leave because you were shrinking. You leave because your nervous system was exhausted. You leave because your voice was being taken, your peace disrupted, your worth diminished. But instead of relief… You feel guilt. You feel like you abandoned them. Like you failed them Like you broke something that should have been held together. So you start softening the exit. You check in. You call. You send kind messages. You do small acts of care. Not because you want to return, but because you don’t want to be the villain in their story. Let’s be honest. Sometimes the guilt isn’t about them. It’s about who you were taught to be. The peacemaker. The nurturer. The one who holds everything together. The one who absorbs discomfort so others don’t have to. And when you finally choose your...

  Universal Tarot Reading How you feel Your current emotional state and inner landscape. Ten of Swords You feel as if something has reached a brutal, undeniable end. There is a sense of being pinned down by events, like the final blow has already landed and there is no room left to negotiate, fix, or reroute what happens next. Grief, exhaustion, and a stark awareness of defeat weigh on you, making everything seem sharper and more painful than usual. You also carry the sting of betrayal or the fear of it, as if someone’s words or actions cut deeper than you expect. Trust feels precarious; you sense that not everyone around you is safe to confide in, and you watch for signs of being undermined or “stabbed in the back.” Worry runs on a loop because your mind keeps replaying what went wrong and how completely it falls apart. Yet this is the kind of ending that closes the door so thoroughly that it stops draining you. It is too late to change what is already done, and that is strangely ...

  Universal Tarot Reading How you feel Your current emotional state and inner landscape. The Emperor You feel a strong pull toward order, structure, and clear authority. Success seems close enough to touch because you trust your ability to set direction and make things happen. There is a steady confidence in you now, the sense that you can influence people and events by standing firm in what you know and what you decide. You also sense reliable support from someone with weight and standing in your life, a person who offers practical backing rather than empty reassurance. This presence reinforces your resolve and steadies your emotions, helping you act with discipline instead of reacting. You are willing to take responsibility, even if it comes with heavier burdens, because you know you can manage them. Right now you prefer decisive action over uncertainty, and you expect recognition for your efforts—more status, a step up, or a clearer leadership role. If you face ill will or oppos...